Just nine days ago I stood on the Miss Texas stage for the last time as a contestant. It already seems like that night is just a distant memory. My final year to compete was like none other; I went in with the most amazing team, wonderful sponsors, and a completely different outlook. I was ready for the job of Miss Texas, but I was also ready to start the next chapter in my journey if the crown wasn’t for me. The whole week was a mix of fun and emotions. In the end, I got to witness one of the most beautiful and deserving girls I know get crowned Miss Texas 2015. I could not be happier with her being our representative! I left the contestant floor late that night with an oversize suitcase in hand and peace in my spirit. As the next few days went on though, I couldn’t help noticing a sinking in my heart but wasn’t 100% sure why. I was thrilled with the winner, I placed in the top 15 out of 57 amazing women, and on top of all that, in my personal life I am living a love story that even Nicholas Sparks couldn’t dream up. But still there was a hurt that I couldn’t put my finger on.
It wasn’t until one of the infamous heart to hearts with Mom that I saw where my seemingly unreasonable attitude was rooted. It was that unsettling finality of closing such a major chapter in my life. It seemed to be taking more of a toll than I have ever thought it would. My daily routine would have to take on a whole new look. For five years, the morning news has been seen through the eyes of an on-stage question, and the 2-a-day workout regimen was always with Miss America in mind. While, I know that my love rhinestones, being a health nut, and finding the politically correct loopholes in current events will not soon fade, I also know that it is the ending of something that has given me so much. All this to be said, I learned something new. Sometimes, even when you look around and have so much to be grateful for, you still just have to take the time and let it sting. I by no means am the type to just sit around feeling sorry for myself, so my stubborn side wants to resist this with everything I have. However, giving myself a pass to let the sting settle and then move on is an important part of life chapters. I had a blast at Miss Texas this year and thanks to family, friends, and various supporters I have never felt more like Miss America than I did that week. My last night competing for a crown I was able to sing my heart out, and I can’t help but smile knowing that I ended on high note.
Pictures and posts of pageant week are coming soon but more importantly more adventures and new chapters to share!
PS: I have about a million people to thank which I will do both personally and publicly in the coming weeks! <3